after all the time we shared

it is wet and cozy in victoria - good for the plants and worms! maybe it is all the pressure to be academically productive, or the anxiety i have about graduating, or the fact i am listeing to the arcade fire, from montréal, but whatever it is, i am feeling sad and nostalgic. i have lived in victoria for almost 3 years now and have been unable to meet/maintain as many cool friends as i had in toronto and then in montreal. not that there are not cool folks here. a big reason is the fact that i have been so fucked in the head for the majority of this law degree. depression sucks, man. i should have just taken some time off and fixed my brain chemistry and cognitive patterns. oh well. i persevered, ended up with shitty marks and little social relations.

better luck next time, bitch!

but there is no next time?

i am feeling happy because the jobs that i am eligible for are all pretty damn cool and interesting! too bad i have gotten no job offers yet (well, sort of...).

i will start a collection of rejection letters. they are all on cool letterhead.

i miss you all, even you strangers that i will never meet (especially you guys, actually).

i am gonna head upstairs and look for old self-marketing-turds that i can use for internship applications. i need to make a cup of coffee and pump some good music up really loud so that i can hear it in the loft.